And I Mean This Reflectively, not Negatively...

About one year ago, I was praying that the Lord would give me a teaching position where I could "do the most good". I didn't ask to be in a school where everyone collaborated and got along swimmingly. I didn't ask to be in a school led by an amazing administration. I didn't ask for a supportive staff or principal. I was pretty specific in wanting a situation where my gifts and talents could fill a need.

That's why I shouldn't be so surprised when I look around me and realize that my school is a pretty toxic environment in which to work. My only question is.... what, what, WHAT can I possibly do to change it?

Because--bottom line--it would make me feel a lot better about being there if I knew that there was a specific, eternally significant reason to be there. And... maybe if I thought about it long and hard, I might be able to think of some reasons; but right now, I'd just like this year to be over so I can move on to a different school.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

I KNOW God placed you there!! And I know He's working in ways that you don't see just yet! We need to be convinced of the same thing where we are! He calls us to be FAITHFUL and you WILL eventually see some of the results!! Love you Do-Do

Anonymous said...

Woa, wanting the year to be over AT THE BEGINNING OF THE SCHOOL YEAR, time for intervention...Dial 911 (Psalm 91:1)

hannah said...

oh no! keep working sarah i'm sure God will show you the way :)

chalkdustmakesmesneeze said...

you want a specific, eternal reason to be there?

take the time tomorrow to look into the eyes of each child that enters your room.

there's your specific, eternal reason to be there.

Gina said...

Sarah I really enjoy reading your blog because it reminds me of when I used to teach. Often I would go home feeling exhausted, pulled in a thousand directions, and just didn't feel like I was accomplishing anything. Despite all of that I really didn't want to leave teaching but motherhood literally pulled me away.

Whenever I read your blog it reminds me of how lucky I am to have had the chance to work with other professionals and to teach children. I am also reminded of how lucky I am to be able to stay home with my own children now.

Thank you for sharing your experiences so that I can better reflect on my own.

Hang in there... remember the first few weeks of school are usually rougher than the others.

Anonymous said...

The LORD knows your heart. He has something planned for you, and the kids everyday. dad

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