can't wait till she comes back

Once upon a time, I used to think I might want to teach general education someday.
 
But I forgot.
 
And today, as I was informed ten minutes before the first bell rang that I would be subbing for my co-teacher, I was reminded of why I should stick to special ed.
 
Even though I know this class of first graders well, and I know all of my co-teacher's rules and procedures, I found myself stressed out and longing for an escape.
 
There's just something about 23 bodies vs. 6 that seems like so much more. There were children and more children everywhere I turned, each with their own level of noises. I had to pee, and couldn't leave the kids with an aide. I HAD TO HOLD IT. Like some kind of "real" teacher. I had to worry about submitting the attendance report and parent pick ups. There were just so many more wiggles to let out and mouths to stop.
 
I guess I didn't realize how easy I had it with my little group of six in the afternoon. Sure, they each have their issues, but there are ultimately only six bodies to keep track of. And I can deal with that without wanting to take a personal time-out!

6 comments:

Ellen Marie "Mama" Pike said...

I feel respect for you that you can teach special ed. Hats off to you and for an experience with the "big class" that helped remind you of your passion.

The whole going to the bathroom thing would eliminate me from teaching!

Jenny said...

I needed this today! Thanks for making me laugh and reminding me of the realities we face everyday. I can't imagine doing what you do everyday. It's always interesting to see another perspective.

malia said...

I think Moms and Teachers should take personal time outs! When I feel overwhelmed I'll tell my kids "Mommy's on her break".

My friend used to be a closet smoker and she used to sneak into her garage and have her "break" and a cup of coffee... not that I'm "for" smoking but the thought of that always made me smile a little

Sharlene T. said...

The grass has never been greener... As soon as you get over the fence, you start seeing the sand patches, missing blades, and weeds growing... But, having to teach 26 little ones vs 6 is hard to match because the needs are different... You serve a very special purpose for our young, and it's not an easy job by any stretch... Come visit when you can... My grass may not be greener, but my solar cooking is!...

Bethany @ Organic Enchilada said...

That right there is why I think Michelle Dugger is a little bit insane.

Mariposita Obsidiana said...

Seriously. When you have a large class, you have to have eyes on all parts of your body, and the patience of a saint. There were days on my various practicums and student teaching when I wanted to go hide in the bathroom and cry. Then, one of the kids would do something that would make it all worth the craziness.

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